What Has To Be Done...

I want to say that I need to just get up and ask girls out from now on, I have this tendency to worry too much over nothing. I turn things into a bigger ordeal than they are. I mean a few dates never hurt anyone right? I can’t go through life just drifting about hoping that the girls I like with just come to me.

I’m hearing more and more often that I must have something for women’s breasts and although I think its not true, most of the girls I’ve been interested in since getting her have been well endowed. I think it might be a coincidence, I really don’t think there’s anything to it all. I really think there’s not much physically better on a girl than her legs.

I need to come back here on whatever day its going to be and just talk to this girl, tell her that I would like to take her out on a date. One of the first things that she talked to me about was that no nice guys ever ask her out. Well I need to bring that up, make my case and all. I think that there must be something wrong with me, I just want to try and date someone, even if it doesn’t work out as planned or whatever. I realize that some of the best things in life are unplanned.

Today when Jamie called I wanted to talk to her about the whole deal, but I don’t want her to have to worry about me or help me out all of the time. I sometimes feel like I ask so much of her and don’t do enough for her. Jamie is seriously one of the best people I have ever met. Its hard to find someone that’s nicer than her, someone that is just so caring and takes care of others so well.

I don’t think I’ve seen her as happy as I did the other day, it made me feel good to see her like she was. She was really smiling, really laughing; just happy to be around her friends again. I really think that’s all that mattered, when I saw her doing that stuff the other day I realized that she would be alright. Jamie will be okay.

Hmm, its not like I have a lot of time to do this, I have to get home tomorrow morning and I have to finish cleaning up in here. This place was left in a mess and I don’t like taking care of it. But I need to clean up. I’m putting down that carpet powder and stuff so that it smells all nice in here and is clean.

I know that I was the one who back home kept things too dirty and all, but I usually didn’t keep it to the point that there were horrible smells coming out. I just can’t have things like this, people come over and complain about it and I wouldn’t want them to have to deal with the smell whenever they come over.

So next week when I come back this place will completely clean and there will be no more of these washable plates, we’re going to do away with that completely. I can’t take the smell of food here and the things I eat here are almost always fast food items that go in the trash right away. Right now my room is in a bit of disarray, but I am going to fix that and possible put some things in new places because I need the room in here. I think I might take some pictures after its all said and done.

I am liking the new digital camera, I’ve been taking pictures of everything. Well I better either go write in another one of these things or go back to cleaning, the smell of the carpet powder is making me dizzy.

Noteable Quote: This happened while Brenton and CJ were playing Champions of Norrath.
CJ: Hell yeah, my strenght is almost at 400! I'll be strong as fuck!
Brenton: Yeah and you're dumb as hell!