Okay, So I Guess They Can Visit....

I’ve laid down arms in the fighting on the message board, as you can probably tell by the fact that I haven’t gone mad already. A lot of things have happened since I last wrote a real entry in this thing. As you can probably tell, I have started something new that may make an appearance from time to time, they’re called random thoughts and I’ll post them when I have them and remember to post them, which probably won’t be too often.

Now on to things that have happened since the last time I jotted anything down in this mess of thoughts I call a blog. My parents came into town on this past Saturday…yeah I know what you’re thinking, disaster, right?

On the contrary, it was actually very fun, Brenton, Rickey and Desiree came with me and my parents to dinner. I was very happy with the way things turned out. Especially with Desiree, for my mom to like any girl that I hang out with is unheard of. But Desi seems to have a quality that most girls don’t she can play right to the occasion, most people don’t have that skill.

Rickey, my dad and I all had the one pound hamburgers, and that is more than most people would ever eat. It’s so easy to tell that America is all about excess when you can go into a place and eat more meat than some people see in a week. Ah, God bless the USA.

But on a serious note, I really have to say that I am proud to have friends like them, and not just them. I’ve come out with a sensible group of friends that I don’t have to worry about doing something dumb and getting me into trouble. They’re nice people that know when to act what way. I love my friends, I can honestly say that.

Yes I still love my friends at home, but its harder to bond with people here, I mean you’re around them every day, there’s no distribution of all of us to keep us from getting under each other’s skin. It’s harder to form and keep friendships here, I feel like I’m losing some friends already.

I’m partly scared for next year, Alicia, Debra and Mandi will be gone. I really don’t want Mandi to go, she’s just a really fun girl, we went to dinner tonight and it was a lot of fun. I got to really act just like I normally do and I was so much more comfortable than normal.

I think I finally found that happy medium in my personality. See that’s what the fight on the bulletin board was about, they were saying I was too nice so they kept flaming me for being a nice person. It bothered me at first, but then I realized that these people are angry little teens who think that cruelty to women will make them somehow cooler, they think that because they are nerdy and can’t make friends that are girls in real life, they should flame someone that can. Some of them might even think that their girlfriend has them under her control so they get on the net and abuse any girl on there just as a way to prove to their ego they’re still something.

Well only fifteen days until that dreaded holiday, Valentines day…maybe this year I will give it another try. I might get something for someone, even though I think the day is a gimmick. No matter what, getting something for someone you care about isn’t ever a waste or a gimmick. Just my take on things.

Real Quick there’s going to be a new link on the blog for all the people looking at the blogger version, its going to go to Brandon’s blog, he’s my roommate. Hmm, that seems to be that….

I’m out like the fat kid in dodge ball.

Random Thoughts....1

I think that I ccover my wall in so many posters because this place just doesn't feel like home. I've mentioned this fact earlier, that I feel like home so many other places-just not in my dorm.

My Penis is Bigger Than Your Post Count

I have to keep this one short, I want to show you guys what happens when you're an uneducated asshole trying to be hard over the internet....behold: The Flame!

Of course no stupidity would be right with out: The Response! I had to say something to this guy, he's atrocious really. I hate men like him, makes me one to become a unic or some shit, but I still want daughters (that was sarcasm).

But all of this doesn't matter, after all, what could you expect from a forum dedicated to Maddox, who is a really great guy who speaks his mind and has a point, "People should think for themselves" that's all he's really saying.

On forums like this one there's one thing going on for the most part, just like PJ said, "Everyone on the dick of the guy with the biggest post count!" I hate that shit and I think that anyone who just piles onto a bandwagon like that should be shot, thrown in a fire, put out, and then feasted on by pigs. Just like Usher.

I have a head on my shoulders and I can think for myself, and by thinking for myself I'm smart enough to know I need a girl to think for me, all men do because we are stupid. Get over yourself, God just gave us a penis because he had extra tissue left over from leaving out parts of the brain that girls have, the bigger the brain the more he took.

Alright on to other things, for those of you still standing around with you hand in your pants, get over to Penny Arcade and check out today's post, its terrific. Alright, on to business, I've decided to show Desiree this little thing, as part of our trusting each other thing. Because I've nothing to hide and be embarassed about.

So with that said and down, I think I need to also do something else, talk to Mandi, I'm starting to think that I might want to ask her out, she and I seem like we're on mostly the same level and it doesn't have to be anything serious. But I'd like to see what happens.

Today was bland, I had one class, drew in there. Then I went to Rickey's and hung out there. I watched Verses with Rickey, Brenton and CJ. It was totally bad ass, I loved it. The movie is so stylish and just all around cool. Lots of good fight scenes, anyone who likes Kung Fu, guns or Zombies, must see this!

Well tomorrow its off to see Mandi if she calls. I'm going to take her some soup I think since she's sick, not like soup ever did anything, but its a nice gesture. (like I said before, "When nothing we do matters, all that matters is what we do.)

I'm Out.

[EDIT: PJ, being the comedic gold mine that he is posted this. You have to read!]

Add/Drop

It seems that I can't add or drop any classes anymore, this totally sucks. I need to get into another class and fast. So what I am thinking is that I'll have to go up to one of the advisors later today and have a talk with them. God I hate how some of this stuff works. But it has to be done their way.

Oh, I had to edit and add this in, its the story that I've been working on for a while, its the one I mentioned as the new begining of my story.It's only like 11 pages, everyone should be so proud. I wrote something short!

The Story

The story is the one I mentioned last night and if anyone has never read my stuff this is as good a place as any to start.

Hump Day

Well my short story is coming to a close, this is the one where Rickey, Desiree, Allison and Megan take center light. Jillie is also introduced, so the fun continues with the new characters being added and some of the older ones being phased out. I really like the new direction of the story, I’m excited about the next story which I will try to start on ASAP.

As I was finishing the story up I decided that I should give Desiree some way to defend herself, everyone get ready because one of the most well known guns has now made its first appearance in the story, the Colt 45. But this isn’t just the normal, run of the mill Colt, this is the Model 1911, its very nice looking.

Look at that, who wouldn’t want that on their wall, its nice, and it even has that trademark barrel, sleek and beautiful—probably the best looking weapon I’ve seen ignored in a long time. Most Colts you see in movies have the barrel that extends down. But this is better.

I also just wanted to post this because it looks funny, this may look like a high powered rifle, but look close—there’s a pistol under all of that madness!

As for a recap on what the other weapons in the story are, not many of them are special, but there are two in particular—the Desert Eagle and the Sub Machine Gun Melanie carries.

There is the Desert Eagle, the gun carried by Agent Caynon in the stories, for ultimate ass kicking power accept no substitutes!

Melanie’s gun, she carries two of these because she just needs that extra kick, plus she’s killing vamps often. An honorable mention in all of this is the Socom, famous because of the Metal Gear games and its use in the army, it will be seen in future editions of the story.

With all of that done I need to get to how my day went, and fast, I have more writing to do. Well my day was normal, I hung out with Rickey and Brenton, and I even got to have dinner with Mandi. She and I are starting to hang out more and more and I am glad of that. She’s a really nice girl.

I also talked to Desiree today, she was doing fine, just a little tired from work, I discussed seeing her on Friday sometime, so maybe I’ll get the chance. I love hanging out with my friends and she and I have been having good conversation lately, so we’ll see.

The Life And Times of A College Student

Here it is nearly 4:30 AM and I am up washing clothes, how sad is that? Oh well. I had a pretty good day, I went to class and talked alot in there, I love Politics and Media, its such an interesting class. Then I hung out with Mandi and her roommate some tonight.

I'm starting to think that I have a lot in common with Mandi, she's a really nice girl and I don't know what she thinks about me, other than th fact she thinks I'm a nice guy. I guess I need to feel this one out more, I don't want to pull anything stupid right off the bat. I think I might see what I can find out about her tomorrow, she's a really nice girl and isn't that what any good guy wants? (not that I'm all that good)

Alright, for those of you who like to see stupid shit, here it comes, my friend Rickey had some A/C problems at his place, the air wouldn't work, so what he did was just try to go with out, but the problem was that the lap top overheated because of it.

Well when it finally cut off when it got to hot he needed to cool it down quick, and this is what he did with it....

Oh yeah, it was that urgent, Diablo II was waiting for him...

Well I better get off of this thing, I have other stuff to do. Like clothes washing

Damn Good Dip/Suit And Tie Affair 2

Well here are the pictures of, well the pictures from the dinner the other night, nice huh. There won’t be much of a post tonight. I went to the store with Rickey, Eddie and Mandi earlier tonight. Had some fun, Mandi is more interesting than I thought. But there’s just not much else I can think about these days than well… you know.

Rickey has promised us some damn good chip dip tomorrow, and he better deliver, because Wednesday he’s going to church, so he can’t till late then. Now, I’m going to have to put these pictures up and head off of here!

Desiree and I

Eddie, Desiree and I

Rickey, Eddie, Me and Brenton

Nicole, Desiree and Jen

Brenton and Nicole

That's all...leave me alone. Just kidding, you know I love you guys.

Suit and Tie Affair

I am starting this post at 3:48 AM, I’m just getting back from Rickey’s and I’m starting to think that things are looking up for once. I’m starting to think that I might finally be in a place where I’m happy, where I can get some long needed rest.

In my mind I am starting to see what Rickey means and I am thinking more and more that Rickey is always right, matter of a fact that only he and Desiree are always right. But let me say what’s been going on for the past few days since my last post. I planned this dinner which started out as a spur of the moment thing to take the place of the dinner we had planned for the 18^th of January. Of course as stated in the last post, that fell through.

The dinner was scheduled to happen at 5:00 PM, and I think the only reason it worked at all was because of the fact that Desiree kind of picked the time out for me. If I had anything to do with it, then you can bet it will go straight to hell.

The catch about this night was, there wasn’t just going to be this fun filled little dinner time romp, there was formal dress required, suit and tie, that kind of shit. I wore my brand new suit, its navy blue, double breasted and I love it. The most comfortable thing I’ve ever worn in the way of suits. I’m thinking about wearing it again just for the hell of it.

I had invited Mandi but she had nothing to wear, Des' friend Jamie was out of town, Ruth was busy I think, Brandon was also out of town, Hannah had no money, Lauren was out of town, Casey and Chanele just seemed uninterested. So the group came down to as follows: Rickey, Brenton, Me, Nicole, Desiree, Jen and Eddie.

Rickey wore a suit that I want to say was a dark green, I can’t remember that well, but he looked like he usually does, fancy and natural. I know I don’t look natural in a suit, I guess I just have no class.

Nicole and Jen wore these business suit things, they looked like women from the DA’s office or something like that, but it was a good look on them. Especially Jen, since she let her hair down and it was really pretty, she keeps it hidden under a hat all of the time. Sad.

Desiree wore this really nice black almost tank top thing, really figure flattering since she has a nice one and she looked even more classy than normal, which is already a pretty high around of class. I could sit here and draw some shitty diagram in paint about class, and I think I will. But later…

Eddie kind of messed us over, he was in just a regular button up shirt and cargo pants—not exactly dress attire, but oh well, at least the three of us were suited up—because Brenton was in a suit too…

Okay, never mind describing all of these clothes, Brenton was in a suit, it was some color and all of the ladies were like “OoOOOoooOO BRENTON J00 SH0 S3XI3…Yeah, they said it just like that, in 1337 speak.

Besides I can show you pictures sometime people, just ask for them, I’m not going to jew my bandwidth up with pictures all over my stuff.

So all the clothes aside, we went to Carabas—I think I spelled that right. And it was good, there was some good conversation and as usual I didn’t finish my food. Earlier tonight I tried to say that when I go with Desiree anywhere that I don’t finish what I have, but in all actuality it just that way when I go out, this school has me fucked up.

After dinner we all went to Best Buy, Desiree got some country CDs and low and behold, one of them had a song I liked on it. It was kind of jazzy and cool and stuff, I’m not afraid to admit I can’t hate all of any genre, that’s just dumb and petty.

So we came back to the dorms and there was all of this discussion about music in the car between Eddie and Rickey, well Desiree and I just kind of stayed quiet in the front, she was driving.

Once we were firmly back at the dorm Desiree went and changed, and we walked over to Eddie’s to find Rickey and Eddie who were supposed to be there. But they had headed to Rickey’s. We went there, decided we wanted ice cream, so she and I went and got Chanele and went with her to some Cold Stone, this ice cream place by the school, very good, I saved some.

To cut a long story short, we came back, dropped Chanele off, watched some Aqua Teen Hunger Force, went to Rickey’s watched Requiem, Eddie pissed me off by being annoying and then I walked Desiree back to her place, went to my place to find Angel and found out it was missing.

That’s when I went back to Rickey’s and found out that Rickey had some stuff to say about Desiree and I, well the talk lasted a while, CJ showed up and got caught up and they both told me everything I should do. The funny thing is that most of it was stuff I should do regardless, just the kind of stuff that self betterment is made of.

Today, was a blur, mindless and relentless in the way it passed. The only thing that sticks out is going to talk to Desiree tonight, I don’t have to divulge all of that here, I’ll just say it went well, and I’m happy to have a friend as good as her.

Now I have to try to remember what I need to do tomorrow, there’s a lot of stuff that I have on my plate and some of it is really important, like switching my English class. College is too exciting, I love it here, I never want things to change.

Back In The Swing

It’s been a good day, I have been pleasantly surprised with what’s gone on today. Besides the little thing with my phone being out of commission for most of the day things went fine. I seem to have an Art History class, the only thing more boring than regular history is in fact art history.

Someone should just pass out crack before the class, that way we’re at least awake for the shots of hellacious boredom right in the face. But the good thing is, there’s only one class tomorrow for me, Politics and Media. I am the youngest person in that class so its kind of going to be up hill for me trying to get them to take me seriously.

Not much really happened today, I saw more of Rickey, Brenton, and CJ—then of course for the first time since I got back I saw Lauren and Hannah. The hostility of the weeks prior to the Holidays seems to gone. I can’t get too mad at someone who gave me gifts.

Probably the highlight of my day was going over to see Mandi after dinner, if you don’t know; Mandi is the girl from my Anthropology class last semester. I just had a urge to see how she was, and I was glad to see her well and have a nice long conversation with her.

She’s probably one of the prettiest girls I met last semester, the kind of pretty that doesn’t have to try. But I don’t think I thought of it going anywhere other than gaining a new friend. I might ask her out, see what she says. But I’m not expecting a breakthrough.

I haven’t seen Desiree since a while back, I kind of wish I had my phone earlier so that I could call her. I will try to see her tomorrow, at least for a little while. She’s a good friend and I don’t want to jeopardize that by doing anything stupid. Friends like her are hard to come by.

In the way of my writing I have been working on the same short story for a little over two weeks now, it features the secondary characters, most of which are recently entering into the story. In the lime light are Rickey and Allison’s characters. Kudos.

A lot of other characters will appear too, along with the regulars, so no one worry about me scrapping the oldies.

I’m cutting this entry short, aren’t you so proud of me? I mean why can’t all of the shit I write be this short?

Pornography

Recently I saw a news story about the American cell phone market trying to integrate pornography into many of the applications commonly associated with cell phones. We’re talking about there being pornographic ring tones, backgrounds, and maybe even streamed video.

Some people may think that this is not that far from what is going on right now, but if you really think about it, how far is too far? Porn can’t serve its real purpose on a cell phone, and not that I like too look at porn because I find it totally disgusting and sickening to see, but I think that it is already more accessible than necessary.

Most of the time with porn people are trying to derive some pleasure out of the pictures or videos they are viewing. Since cell phones are used in public and any time that you are at home you could use your computer, then it is safe to say that some of the things associated with pornography are not even legal in country.

Porn is getting to the point that it is so utterly ridiculous that people are starting to revert back to older technology to view it. I mean, while the cell phone is like an area of the media where progress is made, seeing how we can now watch television on our phones and the like, the pornography industry is not just spreading into the arena of wireless communication.

It is also becoming more and more common to see pornographic stories on the internet, people are actually using stories of an erotic nature to get a rise and I just sit and think to myself, how stupid is that?

And what makes me dislike these stories so much is not that they are written about the subject of sex, but it is the manner in which they talk about sex. I don’t see the point in using words like “pussy” or “dick” inside of the narrative part of the story. Not only does it break the mood if you’re trying to be at all romantic, but it just makes you seem like you don’t know the proper terms or something.

When I write I take care not to write with curse words or even slang in the narrative part of the story. I will make an exception once in a while, but never multiple times in the same story.

I just can’t see the point in someone reading an erotic story to get turned on, and then if not that, then what for? I really don’t understand it. And I have friends that write them and I understand that they enjoy it, but I just don’t know how to rationalize it. I don’t know where they are really coming from with the whole genre.

I guess as long as you make people happy that’s all that matters, but at least do a good job of it, don’t make it all raunchy and unbearably disgusting. I think that a lot of writers just do it for attention or to get shock value and really people don’t get shocked by it anymore because so many other people have done it.

Porn seems to be in a constant state of progression, and despite the fact that I hate it with a passion and with every fiber of my being, its in part a good thing because it helps the internet and the DVD industry. Most of the internet technology owes its thanks for its existence to porn and the industry that bares its name.

But I fear that porn might digress to the point that it’s just pornography in binary and people just sit around and look at the ‘1’ and ‘0’ code on the screen and masturbate.

Why Don't I Call Home?

I’m really starting to remember why I hated being at home so much, my step mom waits until the exact moment I get on the internet and then she needs to get on and do her work. To avoid this I try to get on late at night, for example, I tried to get on after midnight and yet it should come as no surprise that about fifteen minutes after I get on the line gets interrupted and she comes to the bottom of the stairs asking if she can get on the internet.

Why does she need it suddenly whenever I am on. I was gone all day, I got back at 9:30 and I watched a movie until 12:30, so she had all of that time to use the internet for work, but she has to be up tomorrow for work and she’s still on the thing now! It’s 2 in the morning. I on the other hand have nowhere to be.

I don’t see how someone can be so rude and just wait until I am trying to do something before she has to suddenly do it. And what’s worse is we have AOL, so even though we have two separate lines I can’t get on the other one because AOL is the stupidest of the ISPs and only allows one user online at a time.

Truly I don’t know how I put up with her, she finds some way to get in the way of any and everything I try to do. She complains about anything she can’t get in the way of and she makes up stupid excuses for why she made up some dumb nonsensical rule.

When I first got home Christmas eve she asked me how long I had been in town, I told her that I had been at my brother’s house for like five or six days, she blew up and told me that the reason I didn’t have a car up in San Antonio was because I didn’t follow directions.

What fucking directions is she talking about? She didn’t arrange for me to get home, I did that on my own, and she’s lucky I tried because I could have stayed put and not come back here. She acts like she told me to come home at some specific time when all she really did was say that I had to call before I came home, and that was in August when I left that she said that.

I did call before I came home, two weeks before and I never said I’d be there the next day. As a matter of a fact, when I asked them to pick me up on the 14th of December, they told me that it was the middle of the week and that they had to work and all of this other crap.

So when that happened I basically just forgot about getting their help and found a way to where I needed to be, and I did it on my own. No one told me where to go, and no one tried to help me except for Jeff. I mean how do they expect me to get by, they tell me they’ll pay for my college, when I offer to get a job to earn extra money they threaten to stop paying, they won’t give me a car, if I get a job to get a car I can’t go to college. What kind of shitty system are you people trying to run on me here?

I mean I’m cool for money when I’m here in town, but when I get back to San Antonio it’ll be the same old no money thing. And I can’t count on the worthless asses I live with to help out in any kind of way, I mean when I went back there they hadn’t even bothered to flush before leaving the place dormant for a month.

My mother is actually talking about coming to see me at the beginning of next week, I don’t want her to. Because I don’t want to be bothered with my family anymore after I get the hell out of the greater Houston area. I’ve seen more of them than I’ve wanted to and I’m tired of it.

Also there are some people I have yet to see and seem to be unable to get hold of, like my brother, John who is never at home, Megan Thorton, who, despite my best efforts, seems to be busy whenever I try to call her. Julie who was out of town with her dad and who I was having a conversation with before someone had to get online to do work that should have been down twelve freaking hours ago.

When I got back here I tried to be nice to all of them, I came in and said hi, even though they ignored me and the first things my mom was telling me was how I hadn’t followed directions. I sat there in the car on Christmas day while she complained about how I switched lanes too much and drove too fast, despite the fact only one of us has totaled two cars in the last ten years and managed to wreck another without even being in it.

Maybe there are just some people you’re not meant to be nice to, people who just don’t want anyone to be nice to them. I’m even tired of trying, I should only be here one more full day, in about forty hours or so I should be in a car, well on the way to San Antonio where I can be happy and feel at home again.

A month ago or so I wrote an entry about how I feel more at home with my friends than I do in my own room—well let me tell you this, I feel less at home in this house than anywhere else. I’ve felt less at home here for a full eleven years and I don’t want to spend one more day in here.

Almost

It’s almost time for me to head back to the school, I’m excited to say the lest, I was getting tired of being around this place. There are still some more people I would like to have seen while I was here, Megan and Julie in particular. Since I haven’t seen either of them since forever ago. But I guess I will have to do without for now, I do miss them.

The days since I got back from San Antonio have been pretty uneventful, except the whole going to the movies with PJ and Sara thing. We saw White Noise, which I thought was pretty good. On top of that we ran into some girls that PJ knew from school that I had also met once before. Because of that we got seats up close.

I have a new mission for the day, no more of that buying a new game trip I’ve been on, I am going to buy a new digital camera that I can play with. I’m just tired of having to pay for film to get developed and having to use the scanner to get it on the computer. I guess I just like the idea of being able to send things straight into the computer after they’ve been taken. I used to actually hate the idea, because I just thought it was kind of impersonal and that it seemed a little dumb since the old cameras didn’t have the quality of film. But now that they can it makes a difference.

All of the cameras I’ve looked at so far that I could see myself buying are at least $80.00. I really want my camera to have a zoom, because that’s the gripe I have with my dad’s older camera. You can never zoom and what good does that do you?

There’s been a lot going on lately, I’ve had to keep busy because I haven’t really been at the school where all of the fun stuff I usually do is. Hell I just got my video game back from the school!

But I have been jumping from message board to message board, trying to find something to talk to people about. I’m still at the North Castle one, as usual, but I am also at about four others, with only a few posts here and there. But its really been pretty bland because with the exception of NC and LP, a lot of the members there are people I don’t know and some of them can be really rude for no reason at all.

The person who wrote all of that stuff in my blog a while back, the one with all of the slurs and stuff, I’m almost sure that he came from one of these sites. And as usual these people have no lives of their own so they get into everyone else’s. When I get back to the school none of it will matter anymore, I’ll be able to do what I’m more used to doing, hanging out with my friends.

Seeing Nicole and Desiree this past week was a really good thing for me, it gave me a chance to talk to two people I hardly ever get the chance to talk to. Well lately that is. Next week I will get to talk to them again and things will be back to normal, whatever the hell normal can really mean in a place like this.

We Do This ‘Cause We Can, Not For The Thrill

It’s been so long since I wrote one of these, I guess being on the slow internet connection at home has something to do with that. Nothing is really happening right now with me, well for the most part that is. I have to wait weeks just get enough together to make this all one interesting little post!

Last Saturday, the first day of the New Year, was the day that we decided to celebrate Alexis’s birthday. It went on pretty good and all, and the only real problem was the girls wanted to go to the large mall in town, the Galleria and ice skate. Well we went, but most of the mall was closed by six and we got there around five thirty. Really, it was the girls fault, they can’t let anyone travel to a destination without the whole group, I never really got the thing people have with not wanting to break groups up temporarily, I mean we were going in separate cars and we had more than enough for a full load in each. It just didn’t make good sense.

Rickey (I found out all this time I’ve been spelling the man’s name wrong) and Brenton met us at the Galleria. I took my dad’s car with PJ, Alexis, Matt, and Laura in my car. If these names look unfamiliar, it’s because they are people that I used to hang out with before I started this thing. So deal with it.

I had a lot of fun that day, even though I didn’t ice skate and Rickey basically broke into the Williams Tower, which now that I think about it, is funny because his last name is Williams. I use the term break in loosely here, what I really mean is that he didn’t so much break in as he did open an unlocked door and walk in. The way it all worked out was PJ, Brenton, Rickey and I went to go look at Williams Tower, which is for those of you who don’t know, the tallest building in the city of Houston.

We decided that we wanted to walk around the area some and this ended up leading to us going up into the Williams Tower parking structure. We wandered around in there until I pointed out that there was a sky bridge over to the tower. Seeing this, Rickey wanted to see if there were some way to get closer to the building. There happened to be a door that was not closed and Rickey went into the building alone. I kept thinking to myself that black people shouldn’t be going into highly secure office buildings after they are closed to look around. Police Brutality anyone…

I’m just kidding, but really its just not a good idea. Not that I doubt Rickey, he could have probably easily beat all of the cops up and escaped without a scratch, because we all know. Rickey never gets physically hurt.

On another note I was surprised how well Rickey and Brenton really fit in with all of my other friends here in town that he had never met before and only heard about. It was almost like he could have been in that group all of the time. He got to meet, Alexis, Matt, Laura, Tiffany, PJ and some others. The only people I really wished could have been there are Julie and Megan. Julie because she’s just one of the sweetest girls on this side of the galaxy, and Megan because she’s the videogame goddess.

That night ended late with all of us going out to eat the Spaghetti Warehouse, and then me, Rickey and Brenton going back to my house to make fun of bad anime. There’s always plenty of the bad anime to go around, so its not hard to find something to make fun of late at night.

After that little development nothing really happened for a few days, until my dad needed to go to San Antonio to visit someone. I went with him, and I actually got to go by the school and see Nicole, my dad and I got in around 2:00 AM and I went over to Nicole’s around 3:00, I have to say that it is really nice to see someone who I can talk to and agree with several things about. She’s much more fun to talk to than I had ever previously known and I can see getting to know her being a hell of a lot of fun. There’s still things under the surface that I don’t understand yet, and I’m sure I’m the same way to her. But part of the fun of knowing someone is getting to know them better I guess.

My dad and I spent the night at the dorm, he slept in my bed, I came back around 5:00 AM and plopped down on the couch.

It was really messed up how my roommates left all of the dishes dirty in the sink and their clothes and belongings all over the floor. One of them even thought to go poop before leaving and let the toilet stay un-flushed. Just beautiful.

The next day I went with Nicole and Desiree to eat at this place called Zio’s, I don’t think I’ve seen two girls laugh so much in such a short amount of time. I think that as far as people around here go, those two are my favorite. I could hang out with them forever and never get bored. The same could be said for Rickey or Brenton really, because both of them always have something interesting to say.

I’m thinking about making this journal a little more public, I really think it would be cool to see what my friends think about what I write in here. Because others who have read it kind of enjoy it. I let Nicole read my Usher rant, forgetting that it was proceeded by me being one of those ‘hopeless romantic saps’ I hate to be so much. I don’t like people feeling sorry for me, and it seems that to others I’m hard on myself. Well I know a lot of my friends are hard on themselves, some of them when they have no reason to be, most of these happen to be girls. I feel bad about how hard women are on themselves, they’re my favorite people and they are usually put themselves down the most.

I’m starting to ramble, damn this cold medicine.