Why Does Everyone Want You When You’re Gone

I’ve got friends asking me to move in with them…I have people I haven’t talked to or taken interest in for YEARS acting as if we’re all buddy buddy suddenly and treating me like their best chum.

Why is it when you’re not around, people suddenly want you back, or when you’re not available. When I lived near these people I didn’t hang out with them because they never called and I stopped calling. All of a sudden I’m hot shit, I’m Tickle Me Elmo or Pokemon Cards.

I can’t move back to San Antonio, it feels like a dead dream. That city was once what I wanted and I could have probably settled down there for a while—at least that me could have. But I cast that person out, bled all of that blood away and there’s a new determination burning inside of me that knows if I go back to San Antonio this fire will burn out.