This Maze

It’s been a hard last month, my father was in the hospital and he’s home now recovering slowly. But it might take up to a year for him to be fully well again. He had to have surgery on his heart and he would have been dead if he’d had a heart attack. I really have to thank God that we were lucky enough to make it through this and have him back with us.

This blog is something I need too, I’ve become dependent on it. When things are going badly, when I am missing someone, when I don’t know what to do and I can’t really vocalize my thoughts they flow out through me in the form of words, not beautiful words and there’s nothing special about them. They’re raw and true and they’re sometimes the things I don’t say because I don’t know I need to.

Lately I have been listening a lot to John Mayer, I’ve always been a fan of his since the song “Waiting on the World to Change” came out, though I never actually had it in my collection until now. The song that has me caught right now is called “Daughters”, just writing about it makes me want to give it a listen.

But the opening lyrics are some of my favorites because they express something I feel and a second thought I sometimes wonder about different girls I come across. The two thoughts don’t necessarily connect, I like the maze idea, that a girl’s not simple; that she’s not a prize to be won but you do need to appreciate her and deserve.

Though in the second part of the opening, you see that not all mazes are good and not all of the problems a person has are your fault:

I know a girl / She puts the color inside of my world / She’s just like a maze / Where all of the walls all continually change /And I’ve done all I can / To stand on the steps with my heart in my hand / I’m starting to see maybe its got nothing to do with me /

Love this song, if you think you didn’t like Mayer, I say give it a listen. It can change your mind.