Proposal I

Its really hard for me to gather myself and actually go up to some girl and ask her out. It usually takes me a long time to admit to myself that I actually like them and that its not just some passing fad. I've never really been the kind of guy who could just stroll up to some random woman and ask her out with some suave move, that's not me. In fact I don't like that guy.

That guy never got the chance to know the girl or even talk to her, he's just going off what he sees. And I know that the first attraction we usually have, what usually draws us to a person is their looks because its the first thing we get to experience for the most part. We know little about them at this point and that's alright.

I know now that its okay to have to learn some things, its okay to get to know a person and talk to them and get comfortable. I don't want to be that guy who goes into the date blind with no clue about what the girl likes or doesn't like...what kind of person she is and all of that.

Even with all of this in place and all of this knowledge I will still be nervous when I have to go up to her and ask. And if she happens to say yes then I will be even more nervous on the date. I don't handle these things well. All those years in high school and years being told different things led me to believe that no girls that I want would want me. It's a mentality that is pretty much stuck in my head.

I think that one thing in all of this is for sure; once I get to this point its pretty much for certain that I will ask the girl out unless she's not single (which she is single) or unless she's gone to where I can't talk to her. I guess just wish me luck.